Sunday, July 29, 2007
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 11:16 PM
My LAST entry. The next one won't be for a longest of time.
For now, I'd like to extract this memory.
' now to address the issue closer to me. ____, i'm really sorry i didnt attempt talking to you and stuff in school. it just seems so hard with all that tests. and i simply dont know how to begin. _____ seems to be over _____ now and i just dont know what to do about it. without _____ and _____, i feel that there is no one i actually understand around me. yes, there are new friends circulating around. but i know and we know that those are just good weather friends. we know that we're not serious about having them as friends. they just dont fit "__________" you know. and now that everything's drifting apart, i seriously dont know what to do about it. its just hard for me to come between ______ and ______. and without ______ in the class, it is very hard for me to that. even if ______ in class now, he'll probably form a trio with ______ and _____. i just hope we can just talk like we used to. and stand up for ____ and _____ respectively. though i think my ______ stand is starting to get rocky. wells things arent smoothly, just hope someone would understand. '
Yup. That. I never really read it throughly you know. Now I know. It was my fault all along.Labels: reflections
Saturday, July 28, 2007
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 12:34 PM
Woots. Chem Prac and Bio Prac next week. Nightly classes in school from 6.30 to 9.30. School will then be my official second home. Oh how fun! & Swensens at Vivo next week with the Malays(and vegetarians). Haha full packed man.
But nonetheless. I love life. Yes even with all the drama (:
Mental note; Lilies not rosesLabels: random
Thursday, July 19, 2007
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 9:50 PM
How irresponsible. Despicable. No sense of remorse at all. I'm so disappointed. No matter what the rest thought, I always had a slightly better impression of you. But now I know what they have been saying is true. You're not a decent fellow at all. At all. I pity the victim. A lot.
I see flaws everywhere now and its really beginning to scare me.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 9:18 PM
This week is gonna be one hell of a week. Test after test and not to mention English Oral which is tomorrow. Grawr. Not a good week at all. Well besides Racial Harmony Day this coming Friday, I doubt there'll be anything interesting unless a handphone raid happens. Or maybe if someone fractured his ankle or someone else got admitted to hospital because of dengue. Chances are, those won't happen but oh well life has to go on.
Anyway I've been meaning to post an entry on this subject but I never got around in doing it because well.. I was lazy to talk about it. Its been weighing on my mind though. Especially recently. God knows how it found its way back.
Sorry seems to be the hardest word. It is really difficult for a human being to admit he is in the wrong. Being the egoistic creatures we are, we always think we are in the right. Refusing to submit, we tend to believe whatever we are doing will actually benefit us in the near future in one way or another. But how sure are we that we are doing the right things half the time. I mean intuition can differ from individual to individual. What is right for us may not be right for people around us especially the ones we care so dear about.
I'm very sure most of us have been hurt and I'm also sure we have also hurt. When hurt, we tend to develop a sense of hatred towards the person who have hurt you. A slight glimpse of him already irks you. The very sound of his voice makes you cringe and the sudden feeling to commit murder suddenly arises within you. What more the very sight of him. Ugh. Vindictive we humans are, unfortunately. Even the quieter ones reveal their dark side. I have been guilty of such a thing. I mean no humans perfect. We all have our dark sides.
Example, one may be a bloody hypocrite but you just don't hate the person because of a single act right? You just don't talk and completely forget someone's existence just because of a single act right? What more between close friends. The Cold War was between the USSR and USA. It was coined to describe emerging tensions between the two former wartime allies. Apply it to real life and what will you get?
It was an accident. A mistake. A disaster so beautiful and complex that it will require more than the eye to see. But yet. Nothing was done. Afterall, nature will take its course right? Oh how wrong. It was like leaving a knot to untie itself. The knot will still be there the next morning. The next month. The next year.
But somehow in the hearts of hearts, we still want to nip this in the bud.
It just requires one step. Just one.
Me
AdieuLabels: rambles
Saturday, July 14, 2007
- from IF @ 10:50 AM
in·jus·tice /ɪnˈdʒʌstɪs/ –noun
1. the quality or fact of being unjust; inequity.
2. violation of the rights of others; unjust or unfair action or treatment.
3. an unjust or unfair act; wrong.
Injustice, I call it. Blatant manipulation right before my eyes. That smug, and I think I sensed some sort of elation in the air at the moment. Probably satisfied with this triumph. Oh how childish can one be. Seriously. In my opinion, and I'm sure of many others, that what has just transpired has gone overboard. Its not proportionate to the act at all. Not rational in any aspects. The punishment, I believe, was too harsh. The punishment given was already sufficient. There was certainly no need to act any further.
Hypocrisy. Another term very relevant to this case. Please lah. Practice what you preach first. And that sentence alone is enough to convey what I'm going to say. If you can't hold to what you preach then don't preach at all. Look at oneself mirror first before pointing out the mistakes of others. Yes. Agreed. They were in the wrong but aren't you somehow guilty of the same offence in one way or another? Think about it. I can safely say I'm not.
We are going to practise our rights to speak out. We are not going to be apathetic about it. We are going to take action. We are behind our guys. At least by the end of the day, we know we tried.
'...the diary doesn't say can bring knife, bomb whatever so you can bring lah!'
Go mug the diary again because those classify as 'a weapon of any kind' (:
Seriously.
Oh gawsh this has been such a politically incorrect entry but whatever.Labels: rambles
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 7:46 PM
What Hurts The Most lyrics
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to doLabels: songs
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 11:15 PM
I hate this. I hate this feeling. Its the feeling when you know you are only *this* close to breaking down and it only takes *this* much to get side-tracked. And it sucks. A whole lot..
Fuck all this really.
I've been here before
One day a week
And it won't hurt anymore
Labels: rants
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