Thursday, September 28, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 6:26 PM
Exams have officially started. The paper to start us off was English. It was a tough paper.
No joke. The essays were challenging. As in, it was somewhat limited. I'm just worried that
I didn't give enough content. Fingers crossed. Haha. Next paper, Higher Malay 1 and A
Math. Good luck you muggers! We can do it. (:
Anyway 336 is REALLY growing on me. Ahh go sixers! (:
Good Day!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
An Urgent Letter
- from IF @ 1:29 AM
So I was mugging. And then I decided to stop and blog. Its currently 1.25 in the morning
and I'm still up. I really don't think I'll be sleeping till after sahur. Anyway my purpose.
To a certain treasured someone,
First of all, I'd like to apologise cause I know I've neglected you a hell lot this week and
I really haven't been talking to you either. I'm really really sorry for that. I've realised
my grave mistake which entirely caused the chaotic mess we're in now. Yes sorry for
being too uptight too. This, I know, have kinda pissed you off. Sorry alright.
Now, I think you know I had a rather busy schedule and you had one hectic week. Rushing
all the work and stuffs like that. Anyway please. You got to understand. My FYE is coming
in a week now dear. And as I just said over the phone just now, I can't cram 11 chapters
of each of my sciences and other millions of info just 1 week prior to my exams. Please.
I can't do that. Even you agreed. For those who have talked to you during the course of the past two weeks must be smarter than me. I'm sorry for not being smart enough alright.
The issue. Seriously. I just want to say that its nothing to worry about. You need not be
seeing green over it. I mean look, you know who that person is interested in and you
also should know I'm only love you. I said it alot of times already. Trust me the
way I trust you. You are quite close to some of the other guys but hey I still trusted you
unconditionally. I won't flirt behind your back please. I'm not that type of person. I don't
have crushes on others or even two-timing you. You should know all these sayang. You
could at least ask me about this right? I wouldn't have flared up. Sigh. If you are really
unhappy with the current situation, then I'll just stop interacting with that person alright?
And again I sincerely apologise for causing you discomfort and insecurity.
Sometimes I can't help but feeling really inferior to the kinder side of the evil one. Really.
I do. As I said I am trying to give you my best but nearly all the time they fell short to
what he has done for you. In a way, I had to compete with your past. Yeah you have a
point, he made it all sweet and perfect but at least I'm real and genuine. I've had my
fair share doing sweet things for you. Right? And for you info, I didn't have a good week.
I was distraught and just beaten. If you assume, I didn't even think about you then you
are wrong. Your name is always playing in my mind please. I missed you a hell lot okay.
The times we spent without any care in the world. Yeah I know. My reason for not
messaging to check on you is rather unacceptable and lame so I sincerely minta maaf.
Dear, you could have told me all these right from the start. I'd change my ways. I won't
flare up. Just tell me and I'll accept it. Sigh. I've been screwing lots of stuffs lately huh?
I really hope when you read this you'll understand and forgive me. You're truly my
pillar of strength. I'm not lying. I find much more joy talking to you. See the bottle
in the background. Then contents of my heart are still the same. They have not changed.
I love you.
And with this I end.
Good Morning boys and girls.
& selamat berpuasa to my Muslim readers.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 9:18 PM
WHOOSH and BAM!
Exams are like shitz nearing. Ramadhan starts this Sunday which means fasting will
start then too. I suffering from fatigue. I've been staying up real late for the past dunno
how many days. Hrmm. Think I shall sleep way early tonight. I've been suffering from
some emoness and angst too. Yes this is a ranting post so leave if you don't want to read.
Ugh. Getting a teeny bit sick too. Sec 4 Farewell. Hope it turns out fine.
Nights.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 4:23 PM
1)Put your music player on shuffle
2)Press forward for each question
3)Use the song title as the answer for your question, even if it doesn't make sense
4)Tag 5 other people [ANYONE!]
5)Bold the questions and the answers and give your own comments
How are you feeling today?
Linger by The Cranberries
Someone left me lingering for more. Haha.
Will you get far in life?
Hero by Nickelback
Needs no explanation. I'll grow up being a hero.
How do your friends see you?
Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
Ooooh. So thats how you all see me. Unwritten. I see.
Will you get married?
Pieces of Me by Ashley Simpson
Only pieces of me will get married. How tragic. ):
What is your best friend's theme song?
Push the Button by Sugababes
LOL! Riteeee.
What is the story of your life?
Lying Is The Most Girls Can Have Without Taking Their Clothes Off by Panic! at the Disco
Okay. Weird much. Haha.
What was primary school like?
Pump it by Black Eyed Peas
Uh huh uh huh. Pumping life with fun. (:
How can you get ahead in life?
Drowning by Backstreet Boys
So I have to drown first before becoming a hero...hahaha.
What is the best thing about your friends?
My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne
They'll make sure I'll have a happy ending. I'm touched. Heh.
What is in stall for this weekend?
Sweet Child Of Mine by Guns and Roses
I'll spend it with my sweetest child alright. Books.
What song describes you?
Free Loop by Daniel Powter
I'm a free loop. Great.
Describe your grandparents?
Somewhere Over The Rainbow by Aselin Debison
They're somewhere over the rainbow. Looking over me. Awww.
How is your life going?
Promiscuous Girl by Nelly Furtado
Haha. Its promiscuous huh? How not true.
How does the world see you?
I'll Be There for You - Friends Theme Song
The world thinks I'll be there for them. Hope they'll be for me too.
Will you have a happy life?
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson
My life will be happy because of you..Awwww.
What does your friend really think of you?
Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan
They see me as someone who welcomes them into my life. I'm such a warm person.
Do people secretly lust after you?
Everytime by Britney Spears
HAHA. They lust after me all the time. I love you all too!
How can i make myself happy?
Same Script Different Cast by Whitney Houston & Deborah Cox
I'll be happy by going through the same script but a differeny cast. Lol okay.
What should you do with your life?
I Believe by Tata Young
I must BELIEVE.
Will you ever have children?
I Write Sins Not Tragedies by Panic! at the Disco
So...will I have children or not? Haha.
Break's over. Good day. (:
Monday, September 11, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 10:25 PM
School has started. First day in school went pretty quick. It was rather okay. Lessons went
as per normal. If you ask me, the pressure is really on this time round. We have only three
weeks people, THREE. No time already. I need to be more disciplined. Tsk. Hardcore
mugging schedule here I come. Haha. I won't say my blog will on hiatus though. I might drop
in to update once in a while.
And oh. Now I sit way up in front. As in way in front. Right in front of the teacher's desk.
What have I done to deserve such a seat? Nothing. Its just to separate Xuan Yi and Samuel
so that they'll stop talking. Its quite uncomfortable. To look on the brighter side of things,
now I can hear the teachers better. Sigh. I want my seat back.
Goodnight then dear reader.
missing you truck loads.
Friday, September 08, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 5:27 PM
Ahh school is starting soon. ): Yes, I'm frowning at that fact so I am normal. I kinda pity
the prefects who got called up for the Singapore Idol duty in school today. It was so last
minute. Haha. Well maybe they need that break anyway.
Anirudh forwarded this. I think its quite nice and amusing.
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their
conversational skills will be as important as any other. (Oh how interesting)
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. (?)
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it. (Agreed)
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. ( More convincing i guess )
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. (!!!)
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight. (Riteeee)
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have
much. (True!)
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to
live life completely. (How I love life, really)
TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling. (Yah man)
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives. (Uh huh)
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile
and ask, "Why do you want to know?" (I wanna try this)
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. (Always)
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and
responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to
correct it. (Now then it tells me)
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. (:
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone. (for?)
Wheeeee! Haha and people around me finally starts using the now-cliched Click line.
"Will you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever & ever babe."
LOL. Its fun reading peoples' msn nicks. They tell a story sometimes.
Ugh and my homework is still not completely done yet. :/
Off I trot then.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 12:39 PM
Have you experienced that feeling when you already attained that something you want
but somehow deep down you still feel unfulfilled? Like you've tasted your supposedly
sweet fruits of your labour and hard work but you don't really get to fully enjoy the fruits
at all. Instead its tasteless. You really feel that isn't any need to celebrate. Afterall what
goes up must comes down right? There will always be a moment or two when the harsh
reality catches up with you and trips you so that you'll fall flat on your face. Well that's
life or what followers of any religion would refer to as a test from the Almighty.
Feeling unfulfilled. Maybe some factors are missing. Some known factor which bugs you
everyday. Haunting you every minute. A guilt feeling? I didn't do anything wrong, not
intentionally at least. Unfinished business? Yes that might be it. Even spirits can't rest
in peace knowing they have unfinished business here on the surface. The irony of it all?
I'm quite used to this. Immune. I can get on with life. Living it happily as I want it
to be. Somehow I can live with this weight on my chest but when other problems really
arise, it just reminds me of what a horrible person I am.
Its true. I'm a horrible person. I'm a cynic. I've always have been. Throughout my
primary school life and up till now. I was brought up that way. I have been a less cynical
person now but that does not mean it won't show. There are many sides to me I haven't
shown to my peers. A typical sight would either be this quiet, aloof looking dude or this
bouncy, cheerful dude. You can say I'm facade-ish. I do wear a mask. I find it hard to
open up partially cause I believe I am capable of solving the problem myself and I don't
want to implicate others. I don't to be too reliant to anyone like the last time. All my
pillars of support just fell to pieces. One by one. They crashed. Pillars which I believed
who would support me when I'm about to fall but no. I pulled myself up in the end.
Giving up was really a tempting option then you know but no He advised me otherwise.
So here I am now. Regretting not ever opening up and still not opening up. I find it hard.
And I just can't do it. This 'problem' plus aplenty more coming just makes you want to
think everything is superficial. They are not for real. But they do feel real, don't they?
I'm becoming a schizo. Enough reflecting for today. Adieu.
Monday, September 04, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 4:32 PM
Hahaha. New blogskin if you haven't noticed by now. And of course by my personal skin
designer, Dian binti Azmoon. Thank you for volunteering to do a new skin for me. (:
Anyway, I have already started studying. Reluctant at first but in the end I managed
to complete the Add Math paper. Yeah I found it quite fun so sue me if you think I'm
a freak.
Btw I just realised I didn't really blog about my results. TA3 was indeed some sort of a comeback for me. Reinstated my 6th position but with like a lower percentage than my previous time? Yeah I needed 1/2 mark more to clinch an A1 for E Math and another 1
for a distinction in my A Math paper. How nice. Haha. Overall, the results obtained were
really what I expected. Just need to tweak a little bit more and I'll be fine. ((:
Holiday Assignments! Just in case any schoolmates (cause we are all doing the same
stuffs) forgot we're not living in lalala land.
- A Math Paper
- E Math Paper
- Chem Corrections
- 2 Bio test papers
- Physics Blue Book Excercise 6
- Malay Filing
Yup. That should be all.
Oh yeah. I'm sorry if I have given you any troubles or worries for the past few days or
maybe for the past week. Its just that I feel out of place all of the sudden. I kinda feel
neglected by everybody. I looked around me and I seriously didn't know who to turn to.
I felt lost but I think I realise now that I've been pushing people away and I was being
very cynical. I doubted everything around me. The love, fun well everything actually.
You're now probably thinking why I didn't tell you this. I didn't know how. Well me
being me, I was shy/afraid/???. Sigh I'm sorry if I was distant from you or anything.
I'm sorry. I'm really fine now, honest. Hahaha. Tripletwo. (:
Good Day.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 10:00 AM
"An aggressive person has their eye on a big part of your territory, so you'll need to be
on the ball when they're around today. Simple jealousy is driving their audacious power
play, so you should feel flattered more than threatened. There's no need to worry, since
no one can knock you off the cloud you're on right now, no matter how hard they push.
You have very powerful allies on your side ... people who want to see you succeed. You
have nothing to worry about."
Haha. How can I be on the ball when I don't even know who that aggresive someone is?
And powerful allies? Woah. I found today's horoscope from our beloved Friendster simply
amusing.
I realised how much I've slacked and pigged around for the past few days. And I mean
major slacking. All I did were reading a book, watching the tv, eating, sleeping and
chatting online. How productive. Gawsh I feel very guilty. I'll start studying tomorrow
anyway.
Off to play.
Friday, September 01, 2006
The Daily Prophet
- from IF @ 6:25 PM
Okay. I suddenly felt the urge to type properly. As in with sentences starting with capital
letters and all that. Don't ask me why. Only for today though. Haha. Anyway, well there isn't
any other way. I totally forgot what I wanted to blog about. OH! I wanted to blog about
yesterday.
So yesterday was Teachers' Day celebrations. Happy Teachers' Day to any teachers reading
my blog. (: We celebrated the day by having the annual and routine concert. It was held in
the PAC. Well as far as I can recall Teachers' Day has always been celebrated in the hall.
Oh btw, it was raining cats and dogs, rats and hamsters that morning. I got caught in the
rain on the way to school. So the point behind this is that the ACE workout thingum was
cancelled. Hooray went the school. Haha. Kinda amusing.
The concert was rather lukewarm and it got lukewarm response from the audience too.
The items I liked were the videos that 431 & 433 made. That woke everyone up from
their slumber who apparently felt the bands were rather draggy and coughboringcough.
But really you got to recognise the effort put by ALL the performers so kudos to them.
And then after school dismissal, I went back to my primary school. Yes yes. It was
indeed a waste of time but that was the sole reason why went in the first place. Okay
fine. Another reason would be to catch up with my old friends. I waited for Taufiq
at the foodcourt for really long and when he finally came with Shahrum and company
, I was glad. Well not really cause his dudette seemed to be the shy type and wouldn't
even want to face me. When I turned around, she'd look away. I was forced to walk in
front of the crowd. It was pretty stressful alright. And it made me miss you more, you
see.
After giving the presents and meeting the teachers and saying hello to all the old friends,
we lunched at Burger King. I had to go to Popular after that to buy "Post-It"s for mugging
sessions. HEE! Oh only Shahrum followed me there so form your own conclusions where
the couple went. Tsk. Bumped into Kwa along the way and no I had no Halal knife to chase
him around with. Hahaha! Met up with Taufiq later on to go back home together. Kinda
crapped along the way. And that was yesterday, my dear friends. (:
And today. (((:
Okay got to do some prayers now.
Good day to all.
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